I fwwl as if i’m really lonely. Just because i’ve been under so much pressure recently, i have very little money and at times with groups of people i feel easily forgotten or like i’m not wanted.
Is it selfish to say that i want somebody to make me feel special? A text out of the blue to hang out cause they genuinely want to see me? I don’t know, i think it’s like some pathetic fallacy going on or one of those ‘how can you be in a crowded room and yet still feel lonely.’
I feel shit, I feel lonely, I had my first whitey last night, i hate most things again. love is overrated and so are most things. Can somebody just make me feel like they’ve thought about me today?
- Armenia: [singing] Should I live should I die without your love?
- Graham Norton: You should leave.
so cute :3
and i’m hungry bring me food plz.
I feel as if i’m a bit of a tag along and that people just put up with me because i’m there. I feel a little disheartened because of that and it’s been getting on my mind. I just feel like nobody directly wants to just text me to hang our or something because they think i’m weird or something. Recently i’ve been feeling like I should just dye my hair and tone things down a little just go a can reach a close bond with some people. Most of my friends are leaving me and i can’t really cope with that. I know I have other friends and stuff but I can’t help feeling lonely, especially when i get ditched for plans which I always do.
I want to share myself with people and for them to do it back. create that close bond that i would love to have more than anything, cause lately i just feel like something is missing. like i’m not whole.
There is a theater company in my uni called FemBot and i desperately want to be a part of it :(
even the members work along is so empowering it makes me want to create work that is autobiographical like that in some sense.
That performance fucked me up :(
I feel a little lonely now actually