I fwwl as if i’m really lonely. Just because i’ve been under so much pressure recently, i have very little money and at times with groups of people i feel easily forgotten or like i’m not wanted. 
Is it selfish to say that i want somebody to make me feel special? A text out of the blue to hang out cause they genuinely want to see me? I don’t know, i think it’s like some pathetic fallacy going on or one of those ‘how can you be in a crowded room and yet still feel lonely.’
I feel shit, I feel lonely, I had my first whitey last night, i hate most things again. love is overrated and so are most things. Can somebody just make me feel like they’ve thought about me today?   

and i’m hungry bring me food plz. 

I feel as if i’m a bit of a tag along and that people just put up with me because i’m there. I feel a little disheartened because of that and it’s been getting on my mind. I just feel like nobody directly wants to just text me to hang our or something because they think i’m weird or something. Recently i’ve been feeling like I should just dye my hair and tone things down a little just go a can reach a close bond with some people. Most of my friends are leaving me and i can’t really cope with that. I know I have other friends and stuff but I can’t help feeling lonely, especially when i get ditched for plans which I always do. 

I want to share myself with people and for them to do it back. create that close bond that i would love to have more than anything, cause lately i just feel like something is missing. like i’m not whole. 

trololololololololololololol

There is a theater company in my uni called FemBot and i desperately want to be a part of it :(
even the members work along is so empowering it makes me want to create work that is autobiographical like that in some sense. 

That performance fucked me up :(
I feel a little lonely now actually